The Ideas for Fae comes up

 After seeing the BS that Rowling has done recently and her apparent lack of understanding what Transgender people are. I made a decision to make it more public about the fae that I have in my book. I honestly don't give much crap what a person like her has to say. 

If this offends a reader, I'm sorry, but I don't find it right or even in the correct term of the word for anything that has happened. Rowling has pissed me off and often I don't mention this, but I was a bigger fan of The Worst Witch series by Jill Murphy who was by far a much better writer. Nothing against Harry Potter fans, but if you want to know that there are times I just want nothing to do with this anymore. 

On a side note, I will be putting more emphasis on the Fae in my second book as they are now playing a huge role in the world of the Planor. 

Picture of the day

Doing Photography is giving me ideas

 What am I doing?

I have been mentally thinking about the stories, but I am also working on my photography at the moment that I am relaxing into working on my book. I thought about it for a time and I was thinking about going out again for what seems like hours. 

Photo of the Day

News for the Book!

 Home Sick

While I don't condone calling in sick, this time I had to, it was not a fun moment for me and I was lying there wanting to cry. I had to think of something to do, so I had a story in my head and was trying to work my way through it. The Dragon's Library side stories are becoming a world of their own at times, I have an adult side and an all-age side. The main story is for all ages, while the other is not. This is kind of a problem for some people, but others said it captures both adults and kids at the same time. 

Drama

Well...I had to block a certain person from my life because he became entirely too dependent on the messaging and when I told him was writing he would puff up and get upset. He preferred talking about superheroes and how my book will never measure up to what his ideals wanted. I didn't write the book for him, I wrote it for people who want a world outside of the norm. 

Magic System Called into Question

I was not going to make mention of this originally until the first book hit a year old, but I realized how screwed up my magic system is. I was reading through one of the D&D books at my house and was just going to be floored when I realized how badly I messed up. Well...while my fiance has claimed it isn't that bad but I need to actually write down my magic system so that I don't have to feel like I just went through the ever-present D&D books. 

This happened on its own and while I just felt it was stupid of me to just wing it, then I just figured it's my book I just need to figure it out. I am documenting more on the magic system of other books, but for some reason, the closest I have come to was Heralds of Valdemar by Mercedes Lackey. I am not certainly not going to copy her on that, it would be rude. So I am going to try and follow the books that were printed from D&D and then try from there. 

I just can't believe I did that!  

Photo of the Day

News of the Day! Story Progress to Start!

 Story News! 

Well....this is going to be short and sweet, I'm going to start working on the book more as I get closer to winter. The truth is I am also working with a new hobby as well...yeah, photography is giving some new ideas of what I want to see in the world. 

Picture of the Day

Cover Art for Daku Con 2021

The artwork will be selected later and will be exclusive to the convention. I have yet to decide and I am working on the pictures of Thadeous and Quil'recca who are the two that I doing artwork exclusive for the con. I am thinking that I will premiere their side story there. Honestly books 1 and 2 of the main story are going to be sold in a bundle set. The side stories which are way more adult are going to be sold seperate and will be for the audiences at the con. 

The Work from the Book Delayed

What I do on my Days Off

While I was walking in the park I had to deal with a lot on my mind and one was the fires, I had to think about having breathing problems. The Fires just made this year to be much more difficult. 

The Book Delayed Due to...well....I'm tired

I didn't understand exactly what I was thinking, but here is the truth from the dragon's mouth, I work and then I want to FALL ASLEEP! I am riding a bus and I nearly fall asleep and nearly miss bus stop. I am walking back to my house in the dark and I am trying to take pictures at the same time. 

Here are some shots I took for fun

Inspiration from Walking Around a Park

 I haven't exactly been talking about this, but some of the ideas of the world that End Brook reminds me of the parks I have been walking through, some are nice to visit, others right now are dry as hell. I have been saddened by that and I have wanted to walk around more parks in my state to get an idea of what I am looking for. 

All these places I am hoping to find more work on the story since I have found some great story telling. I am still waiting for the rest of the cast of the story to see where I can find more beautiful work that is the land of No Magic. 

If you Gaslight me

Drama Llama 

Being called a liar about my work on my book is kind of annoying. I spent the entire month of recovery trying to be ready to work and write my book. I was pissed off that my friend doubted a lot of what I have done in my life. He actually called to question who I have met, my mother had to come to my rescue and I was upset as hell. 

If he thinks I lied about the stuff I have done, I have worked too hard to get where I am going. I don't believe it wrong to tell my fiance and family what is going on.

New Book Information

So the short stories are going as planned and the second book is in full swing, I have not progressed with the artwork for the book, but I will soon. I was annoyed that I was distracted by being operated on. I was upset about that and life seems to always seem to crap on my birthday too. So I decided I don't want to celebrate and just read a book or just stay inside and hide from the world. 

I also started to find new ways to work. 

Author Birthday Woes

I am not happy about my birthday this year, then again, I never get to celebrate my birthday the way I used to and people like to also rub it in that I have never had a Happy Birthday in years. Every year it gets worse and worse and people seem to take great joy in saying the greeting, but honestly, I'm just going to mention that I feel like my birthday will always be ruined. 

Who inspired me....Kenji Miyazawa

While I speak highly of this author, he died before I was even born, I found his work in 2003 and didn't think much on it until 2005 when I did a report on his affects on Japanese youth and literature. Most Anime is actually referencing his works in some episodes which shows the history that the artist or story teller has for the writer. 

Kenji Miyazawa was born in Hanamaki Prefecture of Japan right in the Kanto region 1896 and died in 1933. While much of his works were not really discovered until AFTER his death, much of the translations and also his works went on further due to his works. His books were translated into many different languages and while I was still in college I was reading his works and poems in English. For me it was like giving me a Bible. To me he was my savior of sorts as it taught me that humanity is not as Christians would have it. 

As I sat down to write my own stories, I found myself referencing the Night on the Galactic Railroad and its many translations that I have found and the train's movement in demensional travel. I found myself insprired and worked on the story still. I never once thought I would have to write an entire entry on here about how I loved the works of this author and his stories. 

While I edit

World Events

I was sitting through editing yesterday and was ignoring the news as best I could. The truth is that no matter how much I work and try to ignore the problems of the world, it leaks in. I was hoping to be done with the side Story and get it ready for final drafting onto a computer. 

I have thought about just stating this coldly that unless someone is from my inner circle of friends knock it off. I know we have so much going on and I feel like even if I speak up I am going to be called a Snowflake anyway. 

New Character Concept

While I was writing, I came up with a concept for the Fae, it was something I considered before, and it is something that will be brought up as we get to book 2 and also move toward the newest book title announcement. 

Fantasy in my thoughts has a lot less limits than I consider. I also don't like following rules that were set up by people who just don't want me to have my fun, In all joking aside I have to consider the fact there is more to writing than what others want. 

The Digital Art Thoughts

When I was asked why I wasn't working an iPad, the comment I made was, I can't afford one. I would love to have the ability to make a digital piece of artwork, but again, I can't afford it nor do I have the time to transfer the artwork. The more I thought about it I couldn't give my heart to say much of anything other than "I'm a broke person!" 

I have talked about artwork and writing, I have thought hard about what kind of work I need to do to make the books sell. The truth is I am still tired and recovering from surgery. I spent the time regretting losing my other pad that was supposed to be working with that. I was just shocked when it shorted out on me. 

So will I have the goal get one, yeah, but will it be a Surface, maybe not. 

The Book News

The Side Stories of The Planor

The news is here and ready to go, it will be going to be editing and also working with other peers on what the story will be about. I will be working with a new writing group on Discord, I will be discussing privately about what artwork will be involved.

I am not going to bring up the books that I am working on:

1. Book 2 (2021, title to be announced in January, preorders will be open in March)

2. The Side Stories of the Planor (2021, physical copies will be accessed at Daku Con)

3. The Craiglist Ad Series (TBA) 

Adult Material

The Side Stories of the Planor is actually NOT FOR KIDS! Unlike book 1 and book 2, which are for kids and doesn't have sexual situations. 

There will be two different series I am working on within the Dragon's Library series, there is going to be for adults and those for teens. I am not going to change that for anyone really, this is just my thing.

Artwork

The new artwork will be moved onto Zazzle for posters and Redbubble for everything else. If you want to chnage that I will be ordering stickers for Daku Con and I will also be ordering books for that time. I am also going to start looking at what we can do slowly for 2021 for the new merch.

Daku Con 2021 Panels

Writing panel and world building will be done with myself, my exboyfriend and my fiance on how to make better worlds. This will be tentative and I will make an official announcment on here when it is ready to go..

The other panels will be:

Writing Your World: Let's make it easy to write a world

Ralph Bajkshi: Who the Hell is this Guy

Let Me Clue You In: How to Host a Murder Daku Con Edition

So much to say and I'm recovering

Yeah, I'm recovering from surgery from back in July 6th, I was reading through what I was doing in the last few weeks. I had to update my Redbubble, which I swear is just a silly thing because no one will buy anything from me because I am not a digital artist. 

Though I finished the side story for Thadious and Quil'recca last night and was starting on the editing routine so that I can prepare to add it to the side stories. It is more of an introduction to the first book, which is a different view of the world entirely with an adult fashion mix. 

 I am going to be working with a few other characters and also hopefully get Book 2 finished soon, though I am dragging this out a bit much right now. I feel like a total idiot when it comes with the media right now and I am thinking of just trying to finish my book and then worry about everything later. 

The truth I was waiting for that moment when I have to stand before some people and start making sure that I have all the books finished. I am also going to worry over what people will think that I have just made an adult book on top of the fact the Planor is a mix of adult and young adult fiction. 

The Problem with Online Writing Groups

This is going to be an issue with those who join writing groups hoping for the support they need, yeah, there are some that are great, some who legit care. Though there are those who don't, just want to use the group as some way to find others who can write their way! 

I joined one such group called Writing Fiction on Facebook, the admins were relatively good to start with, they were open, to start with. But recently I saw red flags coming, one came in the form of a gentleman who was asking about doing a political thriller about something similar to COVID-19, I was like cool. I was about to ask a question regarding it, when comments were turned off, there was nothing even remotely hostile in the comments. I was interested and felt a little turned off about the way this one admin, Heather was acting. She was basically putting up posts and some saying, "You can't do this or you can't do that. 

So for me, I posted a piece of my cover art, which was on my phone, I was nowhere near my laptop to submit a piece of art for others to see. I was frustrated when the comments were turned off with HEATHER posting, "You cannot post work promoting your book, all posts like this will be deleted." Yeah, I was turned off, I was frustrated and I just let it go, but then it turned int something else when I saw the post from the same guy asking if anyone else was feeling uncomfortable.

I posted that I felt uncomfortable about my artwork, I just felt very upset that was told something, I felt like Heather was telling me that I was promoting my book, when I did post, "This is a SAMPLE!" I don't do well cropping with my book on a phone. A few people asked and yeah I posted pictures of my artwork in the private messenger. 

This morning the Admin Heather posts yet again the "You can't promote your work," and I decided to also emphasize something else, "You cannot post your own artwork for your book because it is for promoting your book,. You might as well TRASH IT!" 

She turned off comments and said, "Stop complaining." 

I did message the bitch and tell her, "I'm considering leaving your group, it is entirely too hostile here and it doesn't do well for me, good luck to you." I was done, I was finished with the group and tried to warn another group and I was told that my attitude was a problem. So I left Writers Helping Writers, I figured I'm done dealing with people who do this shit to authors. This is not about popularity, artwork, or who makes what. 

I am still upset that people are being treated like shit! It isn't fair toauthors who join a group and then get blasted for asking a question. So for my friends and fans I want to make sure you guys understand that when you join groups, you don't need to take crap! 

Am I Transgender rights? And other book information

My Transgender Rights Vent

While I try to stay nonpolitical on this blogger, I'm going to mention my views of transgender rights. I am going to mention that yes, I agree with the idea that being transgender is a human right and I disagree with Rowling. I used to admire that author, but I went far from that and started to enjoy the comments and commentary of Lev Glossman. He has spent five years on a show called The Magicians, something he wrote and worked on, put a lot of heart into. 

I worked on my book while watching the episodes of the show and I also admired how up front it was regarding transgender rights in general. There was even a transgender character in teh show that is the Fairy Queen, she did an amazing job. 

Rowling is just hurting herself and as a fellow author on a youtube channel has said, yeah, she's got that right to point it out too. I am going to jsut give n this author a huge thanks for speaking what has been in my mind for awhile. 

Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NViZYL-U8s0&feature=share&fbclid=IwAR1wh0UMuiWadHg8D5VrKMX85jUXxAmvFgLsl4vAjpL0RsMw8oMSj4eFgQ4

News for my books

Now I have two places where people can purchase merch for my works and also support the books that are forth coming in 2021. I was going to announce this before my surgery, but I have some time on my hands so I am going to have to talk about it. 

As most people know that the Patreon is still up and running, though I have to make sure I check it for a change.  The links will be listed below. 

Now for the news, again the con I work with Daku Con was cancelled for 2020 and will be back in 2021. I am going to be working strictly on the material that will be released for the book. I am also working on the artbook which the staff will be helping me put together as we have decided on what will be in and what will be out. The truth is I am going to also bring it to patreon as well. 

The title of the second book will be announced in 2021 in January, I will be talking to the directors of the con about what I will be releasing through the Redbubble and Zazzle sites. I will be mentioning that later in the links below. I am also going to bring news on here as well. 

I am going to make more announcements over the summer on what will be part of the book series and also what artwork will be showing up soon. 

Links: 

Redbubble: http://www.redbubble.com/people/reccaredscale

Zazzle: https://www.zazzle.com/mbr/238632455474065443

 

I was cyberbullied and it did delay my book...

When I mention to people I had my book since 2013 being edited and worked on, I was not lying, and there was a huge reason. I was being cyberbullied by a person who spent his time picking on me. I was upset and it made me not want to help anyone. While I mention that this was a thing that happened, it was painful nonetheless and it made for the worst case of not thinking I was capable of writing, but I still worked on the book regardless.

The person who did this was called regretfulflyer, a person who was Facebook, Deviant Art, and many other sites I was on. I was forced to abandon my YouTube channel called Naginaoeofschwarz and go onto something better. I went into just not being interested in dealing with the drama. 

I felt alone until I was told by other Anime and Sci-Fi fans I wasn't, that this person was bullying others, he was kicked off a Furry group site. He was building on the idea that he was allowed to bully not just me, but everyone who disagreed with him. 

So yeah, I felt horribly and my book was put on hold because of those words and I also felt he would turn around accuse me of plagiarism. He wouldn't have much proof of that, I worked on the Dragon's Library and I worked so hard, the last I would need is him pulling that shit. 

I am hoping he never finds out or if he does, he doesn't attempt to attack me over it.  I grew a backbone because of my fiance and my friends, and I am going to wait for this to hit the fan, I'm going to wait for his brother (him) or himself to go after me.

Ever lose respect for an author?

While I strive to remain neutral on many things, there is one thing I am not neutral about, transgender rights. I don't believe in taking the rights of a person who is  transgender and dressing them in a way that could be considered mentally harmful. While I sat down and read that tweets that one author did, and I will mention I used to respect that lady, right now I do not. I'm disgusted and I would never attack someone based on it because I have too many friends who are transgender and much of the time, they're friends.

I grew to hate it when a person assumed my friend who was dressed in a dress, had her hair up, but still had voice issues due to being born a man was laughed at. I oftentimes had to bite my tongue and my friend would see become annoyed or distraught because I could clearly see how unwelcome we were. The truth is it is not about just acceptance in my eyes, it's about being human! 

My first experience with a transgender person was when I was in my twenties, the first time was with a friend and for the most part, I didn't clearly say, "no," to the meeting. Here we were in the LGBTQ office at a college, here we were making comments about Little India which catered the food for the meeting. How much we enjoyed the chicken korma, the game of phase 10, the moments we laughed at our jokes. She was and always has been a friend to me ever since. 

Yet when I saw Rowlings's words, I was wanting to tear up every copy of Harry Potter I own. Then I thought, no, that isn't how to work this out. The best way is to make something equally opposing to her views, make something that teaches that even a transgender character is a character who is worthy of love. I considered it my challenge, I have thought about doing it a while, yes, I have a transgender character in the world of the Planor, has she made an appearance, yes, she has. She's in book two and I'm not about to tell anyone yet until the book has been published sometime at the end of the year. I am starting to draw in the fact I want this character to show where she can go. 

I have been wanting to do this long before I heard about Rowlings being transphobic, the truth is I wanted to make a character that was based off a good friend of mine. She inspired me to make the character and while I will not name her yet, it is going to be a joy to add a new character to the world I created and enjoy. 

So I look forward to 2021 when I have brought up my webpage and also the characters that will inhabit the world of the Planor. 

Well...here goes the history

I have going to work with this, I'm going to be working on my book and Final Fantasy XIV due to illness, as of July 3rd, I'm going to be recovering from surgery. I am hoping that by the time I get well on July 11th, the new book will be done. 

The Dragon's Library Second book will be finished sometime in August and will be projected to be done with editing in December to be ready for next year. Yeah, this is going to take awhile.

The Pride Month story will be out sometime next month, it will be late, but at least it will get a release date sometime in the end of the month. 

Pride Month: Thadious and Quil'recca Get a Story

I was asked a while back about two characters in the book and I thought about it, yeah, I could do it, and yeah I will make it about these two characters. I was thinking about doing their side story for awhile and while I am working on the second book, it started to become clear that their story needs to be told. 

I was never so sure until I was reading through the book, then I realized how much work I have been doing on everything. I was thinking about it, and while I am going to be laid up from surgery coming up in July, I have to finish this book off.

The second book is having issues

Working on the side story

So when you think side story for the Dragon's Library, yeah I am deciding to do the story with Belsom and his boyfriend, Quil. While I know it will be requested in the future by an LGBTQ audiences, I am hoping to say my favorite gay men are going to be getting their own story. 

I am pretty much saying, "Yeah, we have pride month right now and BINGO, bring in Quil'reca and Belsom!"

I am feeling that this could be a great idea! 

Back to my job

So yes, I went back to work yesterday and I will not be on as much as I want to, but I will be working on the second book as things go along. I am not sure how this works out for some people, but I will be handling everything when it comes to the book release.

Now for the other issues, the problems with social distance, I actually have no problem with it. I am thinking of something that might help myself in the end. I am not sick thank goodness, but I honestly would rather not deal with people who would rather get in my face over stuff I have no interest in dealing with. That is just my social commentary and I am fine with it. 

We're back!

Hey there pals, I am sorry to say we are running things a bit differently, I am going to be uploading a new virus scan software and also working with new artwork coming soon. The fact is that book two and the novellas are going to be taking different routs to getting it done.

I also will be heading back to work on May 28th, so I am going to be making sure everyone gets an update on new projects that are coming up. I am going to be looking forward to the new normal right now. 

Due to Computer Problems

I have to wait till I get a new laptop on the 15th, the issue with my surface just died on me, not exactly happy about it, but what can I do...it was something that was bound to happen. I am working the book, but my entire thoughts have been kind of crazy about whether I have a job or not considering the COVID-19 scare and other issues that could happen. 

I will keep you posted. 

The World of the Dragons Part 1

Staring on the writing land of Planor starting in a few weeks, I am not sure how I can go around talking about this without going into detail of what I have to do. I didn't intend to confuse anyone when I thought about building a map...then I realized I suck at map building.

The last time I decided to try and build a map, it looked really bad, and somehow I was just confused and threw that concept away. Then again, it doesn't help that my friend has map-building software on his computer and he spent lots of money on it and I don't feel like having to bother him with making a map for the Planor because I will change it again.

It is a complete annoying factor that I am also building the world with one other thing in mind, it is called, FAMILY TREE and it looks pretty screwed up now that I am looking at pictures of it. O_O; Yeah I think my mind went out the door and took a left and started to walk funny like on Monty Python.

The Virus made writing impossible

So I went out to get my share of notebooks and got thoroughly chewed out because I don't own a mask and putting something on my face actually doesn't always work for me. I tried to explain, but apparently, this just turned into a why bother moment. So I decided that the Dragon's Library will be closing up shop until further notice or until I get a steady supply of notebooks that I can use for writing. People honestly are unpleasant, and makes me not want to write anymore.

I also had to close down my Shadow Tales: On Going FB Story because the D&D group that comes to my house during my fiance's sessions no longer can come over. I am basically stuck and unable to move any further from what projects  I am working on, so I figured this just another reason to give up on writing.

I love to write and I love to make stories, but right now, COVID-19 just shut my down for awhile, and I am having a lot of trouble with ideas. I sit staring at a piece of paper and realize, I have to make sure to make it last...and sadly writing a story is trivial in the eyes of majority of this country. My ability to write is a trivial thing and though it keeps me happy, it pisses other people off, so I am giving up.

I don't know what else I can do...I have an FB page and works...I don't know whether I should just give up or just tell people the book is delayed for indefinitely which means it maybe forever before I can start writing again.

The question arises as to why I won't use a computer, the reason is it is too simple to miss mistakes or errors on a computer, some programs don't check for grammar or sentence issues. So I do it myself and re-edit the books at least 3 times. Sadly, I usually write everything down and keep a record of it. I don't trust the notebooks when I am done, I use it as reference if I need to. Using a computer makes it harder because I am more concerned with messing up.

Though I do write fan fiction using a computer and writing anything, that is because I have a pre-set world with pre-set rules. With my books, I am the one making the rules and I have to make sure they work. This means I write it all down in note books and then reference them continually, If I used a computer to keep track of it, I lose track and I get confused.

Giving up...on a story

I was looking into building a website for the Dragon's Library, but realized early on that somehow that is a bad idea. I have tried to be patient regarding a lot of things, but my confidence hit the lowest side and it was all because of a friend's relative named Paul Zollo who called me a retard and that LD can't be writers.

I honestly felt like shit and refused to think about it, I was glad his relative, Rebecca Zollo deleted the conversation, but my heart sank. My heart sank because this person called me a loser and my book was utterly terrible in his eyes. I have been upset because he took advantage of my learning disability, than I learned that ALL truckers HATE learning disabled persons.

I don't think I will ever trust a trucker...in truth, I will point blank NEVER sign a book to a trucker

Getting Ideas from Shows

I have been watching The Hunters and also finding myself wondering how I can create a group that works alongside the Grand Dragon and also maintain a sense of spirit. I was watching the show and thinking about the characters and who they are.

Book writing turns depressing

I was talking to someone about writing on FB and I was called selfish, I was staring and asked why I was and all I got is that comment, "No one wants to read your book," I felt compelled to just stop trying at times. I want to keep writing, but the fact is I want to know why people hate writers.

I am wondering if maybe I should give up hope of ever writing something worthwhile, I have tried so many times to write something I love. The Dragon's Library is what I love, but its when people tell you things like I am a terrible person for releasing a book to take people's minds off COVID-19. I am just not sure how to handle that kind of rejection anymore.

I have tried, I have been trying to stay positive, but my heart just broke when people tell me that I'm hated for being an author. I did not do anything and I wish I could just say something to make it all better and make people understand.

I just fixed my Patreon and also a few others things on my book's FB page and it sucks that I am now thinking I might have to shut these things down because of it. I am also depressed that I can't continue what I am working on. I have so much artwork and so much promise in the story. I just feel disappointed in myself and I have no idea where I am going anymore.

Figuring out Book 2

I am thinking about this, I am working on the second book and I am trying to find something else about what I should do next. I am thinking about this and while listening to my favorite Youtubers. I am sort of annoyed a little with one of the stories. Socially awkward, but then again, having had someone who is a stalker and thinks he can be vocal about what I can and can't do with my life.

The truth is, I thought about all this, yeah, I'm a writer now, I am an author and I hope to gods that this one CREEPER isn't trying to be a fanboy. It may sound pretty heartless, but I have to say this is my own issue with people.

Never felt more motivated

I was working on fanfiction today, I usually don't write this long for an entire day, but here I am writing the rest of the Prelude to War of The Planor. I have not thought about calling the Tales of the Planor that, but again, this is the first set of stories that will not focus on Belinda, Sam, Thadeious, and Kel. I am going to focus on the side cast in the Tales of the Planor Series.

The sooner I get these done the better. I am hoping that they are going to fair well considering how many people are home. I am still unsure that I brought these books out at the correct time.

Day 6: The Information

I am going to work on the book, I will be announcing the links to my FB and hopefully, people will help me. The truth is I am waiting for a bit of fall out from people talking to me, I am waiting for someone to make a negative comment to me. I am not sure how I feel about this, but I once felt that people like that usually drift in.

I have had several drift into my life and they will do whatever it takes to make my life difficult. Though one has tried to control how I wrote my works and how I treated my hope. Though all this person did was write smut and oftentimes tried to make her life better with being a backstabber. She would actually demand her friends change for her benefit. I personally decided to never be part of that girl's life and I hope that she doesn't darken my doorstep after this.

Then there is another who I simply call my fiance's friend, she tends to since she transitioned been on the bitch scale. She has tried to hate me for not being a REDNECK lover. I personally can't stand her for being racist toward my friends who are from the Navajo Nation who aren't drunks or drug addicts, as this person claims they are. I have never once thought it fair or correct to treat someone she barely knows like shit, but of course, this person has. I know that once this book gets out, then I'm in for a load of problems from this said person. She's going to claim a cut, she's going to attempt to treat me like shit, then pretend I am her friend.

Then I have a very CLINGY former friend, I will simply call Box of Rocks, he simply has NO BRAIN and believes he's my boyfriend, even when there is a 14 year difference and I have NO INTEREST in him. He will take the fact I published a book and say I'm his girlfriend, that I am somehow his best friend, when seriously am NOT! He has continued to claim shit and then gets mad when someone debunks him.

I am waiting for him to come to my door in fury demanding I take the book down. I am not exposing anyone in the fandom to anything, I am just writing my own stories and doing my own thing.

Day 4: The Work is Continuing

I am working on the next book, I'm not excited for some reason, I am not going to talk too much on the matter, but I am waiting on more word, but I am also waiting for people to talk to me. I am working on the rest of the stories, which is the in between story.

I did not need to know what is going to happen when someone finds out I am an author. I know certain people from my past are going to make demands. I personally did not think or thought much of the negative.

The truth is, I am waiting for people to find out I did publish, I am waiting for someone like I don't know some person from my past to show up with some kind of legal papers or something. I haven't really announced much to people.

Yeah I must sound kind of scared that I am posting about this on here. The truth is that I know my past and I know these exfriends pretty damn well. I get one hint of money coming my way and I will get some kind of punishment or demand thrown at me. I am thinking if I make over $300 I am going to have someone like Takara (Danelle White) demanding a cut, she is the kind of person who would demand I plagiarized her or something. She doesn't even write fantasy novels, she only writes novels that pertain to her obsession with Alice 9.

The other person I would worry about is another I won't name, she just doesn't need an audience with as much drugs she does. I won't talk much on the matter other than the fact me publishing means she'll just take her time and wait to show up at my door demanding something out of my fiance or myself.

I don't think I will be that successful as a writer, I know that many people are going to point out the greatness of the fact I published through Amazon. I was not entirely sure how well this will be handled considering that digital is  $.99 and a copy is $6.99. I am not sure people will like my story, I don't think many people will like the artwork or the work in general. I am scared of the idea that someone will talk badly about me.

I did place an order for the physical copy to be sent to my house, an author copy, then I will talk to friends about what I am going to do about selling them. I am not sure how people will respond, I just use Amazon to handle the sales for some of the materal. I don't think I will profit that much from this at all. I wanted to and dreamed of publishing the stories I wrote.

Day 2: I am super bored!

While I write about this, I am just not going to be mad, but I am going to complain, I need to work at least. I have been working on the editing for the mini novel attached to my book right now, so I am kind of tired of this being out of work BS.

I love working but honestly, right now, my entire body is damned with the concept that something is going to be going wrong soon.

I am looking at Amazon for distribution for my book digitally and hope that I can at least be ready that way. I am thinking about releasing by May at the earliest or June at the latest. I am hoping that I can use my own artwork by the end of this because I have several pictures that will help with the covers and also a few other pieces of art that are part of the artbook which will be physical.

I might have to look at kickstarter for some of the Dragon's Library Artwork to help pay for physical copies of the books for distribution outside of Amazon. Yeah, the joys of planning ahead!

Maybe sooner, I just finished up the information regarding the Dragon's Library information, though I may not be using my pen name on here for much longer, I am thinking for using my real name when I do this book. I have hidden behind, Nagi, Recca and so on for years, so I need to work on the fact that many people who find out who I am are going to hate me.

Yeah, if I become famous, someone will walk up and start to talk shit about it, it isn't my fault that I did shit back in 2009 I am not proud of. I think it shouldn't affect how my work looks now.

I did it! I submitted my work to Amazon and I am hopeful that I will get an answer or modify the work to comply, I am basically releasing my work onto Digital and paperback. I am not relying on paperback as much as I am relying on the digital copies to be sold. Yeah, they're cheaper than I expected, but I am hoping to get more information as it comes out. I am also going to be announcing this to my friends come Monday.

Home till further notice....not a happy dragon

So far, I am home stuck writing a book and working on whatever while wearing cat ears and a tail. Yeah, I'm just going to do a cosplay of the day type of deal and have my fiance take pictures of me so I can have some fun. I may actually put on my Yami Kawaii outfit tomorrow.

The fact I am battling writer's block right now while my fiance sleeps, he only got a bit of sleep this morning. While we did fight, I am opting to change a stance I have had regarding the book's publication.

As it sits second book is still stuck on chapter 1, I must be losing steam right now.

Hard Core History Lesson: Dragon's Library

I am working on the history of the Planor, this is not going to be seen by most people, but here I am trying to do a family tree and then work on the creatures of the world. I have been not working on that and I have been kicking myself because this is kind of important to World Building.

I have had to build on this as it is part of the history of the Planor world, but also acts as part of the story and what comes next for Belinda and Sam. I have not thought too far ahead of that but I am thinking of working on a Prequel series after the main story is done introducing the cast of Dragons and the cast of Elves who were around during the Dragon Wars.

I have always thought that it was a good idea to write the Dragon War in a few years, but I have always felt it was going to come out during the book as I release it. I am starting to think that maybe i should just continue writing the history along with the story and then see how well that develops. I am not sure how I can work with it, but here I go.

I am thinking that I should release along with some of the books, "Planor History 101: Dragon War," "Planor History 102: Post Dragon War", and then finally "Planor History 103: Mage Wars and Beyond." As I  see it, that I created a huge amount of history and also a huge amount of craziness attached to the world and the characters I have created for said world.

Back to Work

The Dragon's Library is back up and running again, I am so far working on book 2 and working on finishing editing of book 1 which is ready for someone to look at. I am pretty much going to be focusing on this while this COVID 19 thing is going around. I am not sure how to respond to people these days because all I want to do is work and get the book reviews done, but now I am forced to work from home on the books instead of in the comfort of a library where I could just bounce my ideas off someone.

So far, I did help a friend of mine out with his book issues, in fact he actually took my suggestions to heart and redid a section of his book which I believed would have been stronger. There are things I am good at, politics is not one of them, but at least when it comes to prose this girl knows what she's doing it.

Now I just need to work on the Dragon's Library and finish up what I can do.

Writing and more annoying factors

I have not had pen to paper as of late due to my brain wishing it could sort out story ideas without feeling overwhelmed by the news. The truth is I don't rightly give much thought about riding the bus or getting sick, I just do it and not give up my idea that maybe getting sick happens.

Personally people flip out with the dumbest thing. I remember watching an episode of Hey Vern its Ernist who talks about Space Viruses and other strange things. Everyone gets sick, no matter where you go or who you know. I could have a cold one second then the flu then something else, it is all amounts to how you educate yourself.

As I write the Dragon's Library, I take into account, yeah I get sick, yeah I get tired, but I can always write down my stories while sitting in bed trying to get better. The truth is though I feel the stress around me too, people who see writers think we're lazy.

I started to realize how lousy that feels when someone tells me I am a lousy writers on Reddit, but then I realize, wait they're writing my accounts of what happened to me. They're not reading the stories  I write offline or what I write on Wattpad, so some of their shit doesn't matter to me. So I will close and say the contest is slow this month due to many problems.

Super Sad....The Magicians is going down

Well...after April 1st, the show is ending and its sad, I was actually enjoying myself with this one show because it actually gave me some pretty funny ideas with my own writing. I wanted to thank Lev Glossman because he sure as hell made a lot of ideas I was tossing around possible, though the rabbit message delivery was original. I am pretty sure that I won't use that in my book, but its a good concept to have a transdeminional being that are rabbits.

I am sad to see the show leave the air because it gave a lot of concepts about being positive about one's life. It talked about suicide, LGBTQ issues, and also about rape in a manner that was sensitive and also compelling. I agreed with how Julia handled her rape and how she handled going forward, she was angry and she had every right to be. Hell, even Margo agreed with her actions to a point, though destroying an entire forest was a bad move.

The truth is I was impressed with the way the story was conveyed and also how the actors were received, I was happy to have met Summer and Hale, they were and always will be the nicest people ever.

I hope that eventually the party in the group doesn't end. It was the most positive experience I have ever had!

The Break is Real

I had to take a break from my own writing because it was giving me a headache, I started to write my own fan fictions again to sort out a lot of things. I am exhausted, but again, being sick doesn't help the matter and having lost my voice this morning did not help me.

Frustration with the fact that I see the political streams of thought, I had one guy who is a Trump supporter actually degrade my writing and my drawings to the point that I don't what to draw or write anymore. I was just disgusted and while my fiance speaks that I shouldn't listen to these creeps, he's not the one who gets messaged with insults or the one who tries to block them out.

I am not going to whine about it, though I am going to just back up a little and see where I can just make it through this political shit storm. I noticed that the more people are reading the less at war it feels that people are going. There are many writers and readers who are not for the ideas of what is going on in the country.

Though on my other blog I decided to put it out my logical reasoning why I dislike C.S. Lewis as a writer and prefer the works of Madeliene L'Engle, Lev Glossman, Jeff Vandermeer, and more, that they seem less rule making. I personally want as an author to be like these authors with their own spin on fantasy and wonder. I have always thought it odd to turn around and tell people rules, I never got that sense from Anne McCaffrey or even Brian Jacques (Jakes). I was much more into works where you can feel included.

So I have to go, my fiance needs laundry.

Ever watch a show and go....THAT'S What I needed

I have not thought about this for awhile, but I was thinking about how these things happen to people. Losing a family member is one of those things. I was going to move this to my LJ when I am finished, but my work's wifi doesn't allow it. I'm kind of like well...guess I will talk here.

How a certain show helped me cope, The Magicians talks about a lot of things and when I think about it, yeah it inspired me to write my book, but I never thought it spoke of loss as mine. I lost a sister in 2019, and for the most part it was another reason I stayed the course and continued to write my book.

So how does The Magicians affect me? Well...one of the main characters died to save his friends, I remember the episode and how angry I was the first time I saw it. Then I rewatched it back in December and then saw Season 5 Episode 2 and went that's exactly how I felt! Yeah, I would do that, I would steal my sister's book from the Library and try to do this spell. I realized that the main cast were coping in their own way, and some more open about than others.

While I related to Julia and Alice's views, I saw it my own way, Julia was trying to find meaning, while Alice was trying to figure out how she could find her closure. The truth is I realized how both were like me, Julia was able to take on the idea that something was going to happen to Fillory and stepped into Quentin's shoes as the hero, while Alice wanted to drown. I wanted to find my meaning and found it staring right at the one thing my sister loved, she loved reading Clive Barker books.

Now here comes my Julia side, I was and am going to rebuild the book collection starting with Imagica and all the books my sister has, then build from there. Going from one collection to another and hoping that it makes for a good memorial, then when my nephew is ready, I will give him this amazing collection to read and enjoy. I know my sister would want that for him, to understand that there is a dark and light world out there.

There is so much I could say and not say about it, but when I think about all the things my sister loved about her hobbies. Though one such hobby is driving me bonkers, she fell into Fragrant Jewels Bathbomb rings collecting and I'm kind of like oh joy...I have hundreds of these things now! LOL....my nephew does not need these, but I can set up something for her.

Bad Storyboard ideas!

Seriously when I started looking at Book 2 I am starting to think my brain can't get anymore joy out of this idea. I am not saying I hate my work, but sometimes I wish I would delete it entirely and start from scratch because some ideas need to be reworded or thought of differently. I suppose that as a writer that happens to everyone, though I am acutely aware of my own criticism of myself and that makes me a lot worse toward myself.

In other weird random news around me, apparently the idiot in office wants to go to war with Iran, while I try to stay out of politics, this just strikes me as not my thing. I am not the type of person who thinks this is going to go well for writers around the US. I'm sorry to put it out there, but honestly, there are some fictional authors who might get in trouble for saying they're against the idea. I being one of those who are against the idea, it is just that simple idea that maybe it wouldn't work out for us anyway.

Truthfully that's all I am going to say on the matter, this is not my idea and I'm just going to stick with what I know best, keep writing and not worry about this too much.

Went back and forth with editing

I took a bit of a break from editing for a time and was thinking about what I'm going to be very busy tomorrow regarding the book. I have thought about what I'm going to be doing for the next few weeks as I am finalizing the rest of the books and starting on hashing out Book 2. The fact the Dragon's Library I believe should be at least a few books long is making it seem like I have lost half my mind already.

I am also trying to balance my relationship and also my hope that this will be the year Lee and I tie the knot. I have thought long and hard about this kind of stuff for years and the truth is the book and him are pretty much been a focus for awhile.