Meet up today with a friend and what's going on

I have a meeting with a fellow writing friend who needs some help with a story he is working on. As he was in the Middle East this is more a memoir than a fictional story. I am hoping if he needs me to take his story down, I will, but we may have to have multiple sessions over the next few weeks to get this story out and also find him a publisher for it. I feel this is his chance to be open and honest of the stuff he has seen and also to put his own demons to rest. 

I on the other hand am working harder and harder to finis up the Dragon's Library, get it edited and finished up for publication. I am done emotionally with the way the community here in Colorado at least in the Anime community who are nothing more than jerks. I have met some gems in there and I hope that community doesn't eat them alive. I personally want my book published, but some how people have taken to taunting me about it. Saying I am never going to be done. 

That's not how it works out I'm afraid the topic and terms that people say that are used is that I am nothing more than a liar. Yeah, I'm done with that, I have worked way too long on being a writer to be used and thrown away just because of something I did. 

Small acts of kindness is not going to rescue my reputation, but I decided that one of the few things I have done is turn my back on people who used me. I am glad to have people like the directors of Daku Con who have been the most awesome gems out there and I will forever be loyal to them. 

If anyone in CAC sees this, none of you understand what you put me through and as I am writing the Dragon's Library, I secretly pray I don't have to ever show up for a book signing. The fact is that its just another thing they'd use against me as I am nothing more than cannon fodder for rumors. 

I have always had a faint suspicion that it was a CAC admin who decided to make stuff up about my fiance and spread unflattering rumors. I am just stating these thoughts to paper, but honestly, the drama that exists in that community still inks out. I honestly get hostility no matter where I go in the Anime Events, but never in my wildest dreams that Daku Con is basically the only place that I am not feeling like I am point under fire for not being part of the community that only gives a care about popularity. 

This is what I love about the directors of Daku Con, they don't give two shits about popularity, they basically just speak up and defend themselves so well. I am honored to know these people and will always stand by there sides no matter what. Directors like these make it a joy to work for the con and hope to make this con the best. 

They're my driving force to get the Dragon's Library finished and out to a publisher, for that I am going to have to acknowledge them for what they have done to inspire me. I am inspired by the dedication and also making this con about the fun, not about drama and popularity. I realize that as I sit here, I am going to be working harder and harder to finis up the work I set out to do in 2013 after I was abandoned by a friend. 

The fact that I was abandoned by a friend simply for something I did not come to understand latter and will never forgive the other for their drug use. I am going to stick with a drug free lifestyle, which means no drugs and not even pot. The fact is I have too much riding on the book to be published to even think about something so silly as drug use. I take medication for birth control, but when it comes to stuff that is illegal, my mind is way too free from it.

So honestly, I hope I never have to deal with druggies in the future, the fact that remains clear is that I am a writer first and for most, not a slouch. I need to remind myself that people use these drugs to get some kind of pleasure that they cannot get in reality, I on the other hand use literature, Anime and sometimes even movies as part it. 

To this I say, I will continue writing.